life sucks sometimes.

well it does, ok? the last thing i want to be is whiny, but i'm speakin' the truth here.

i'd like to say that i'm happy, but i don't think i am. and i'm not really sure that i can think of anyone right now who can honestly say they're full of happiness. ok, actually i'm sure there are people who can say that, but most of them are liars. i look around and i just see a whole bunch of sad people. my brothers aren't happy. allison is so full of hate, she's actually emitting hate energy. god knows my parents aren't happy. and don't even get me started on some of the people i see at school.

why do we all just walk around tired and sad and lonely? if there was a way to spontaneously be happy i'd like to get on board (no drug references, you morbid morbid walrus.) so, eventually, i'm going to start keeping track of stuff that makes me happy. right now, i'm too tired for this. its like 12:15 and i've barely even started my homework because i was busy mentally napping and eating more than i should.

oh, and they took my door. like i live in some really bad 90's movie. i change clothes in the bathroom. why? because i don't have a door on my bedroom. that's the new perk to being grounded: oh, and bonus! i still don't get a life. yay!
not so much...

love you and hope y'all are actually happy,
b (who would really like her life- and her door back.)

No Life....

I colored a tree a couple weeks ago... That's my crowning achievement of the month. I need to get out of the house...

Mid-life Crisis

This is my relatively small rant about all the stupidity I've faced in the past several months.

I think I'm going through my mid-life crisis at the age of 16. I feel ancient already and completely separate from teenage life.

I feel like my life could be a sick movie/play. It would be a timeless classic about the selfishness and insanity of mankind. My mother plays the role of the annoying 15 year old sister who believes the world revolves around her, my siblings are the innocent by-standers harmed by her psychotic paranoia, I play the 16 year old who starts of with self-centered business and reliance on others that is forced to learn several lessons in life as her 15 year old sister results in her life flipping upside down. Almost all of the 16 year old's friends are no where to be seen as she faces the harsh realities of life. People suck. It will start off with character building then go into the seniors she knew, mainly to tear at peoples' heart strings when one of the seniors can't keep the promise they made that she'd have a whole year left with all of them. Then it would progress to the point where she gets kicked out of school by the school board who is more concerned with money then students, and is forced to deal with her sister all day to the point where she can't stand to see her anymore. Her family's in pieces and her innocent siblings forced into something they should never have to deal with. As time goes by the girl gives up on the world only to learn lessons that add hope even though almost all of her friends have abandoned her. Her "best friend" never even bothering with a text. On top of that one of her other friends completely manipulates her. So as she's facing one of the hardest times in her life she feels more alone then ever. Ending to be determined.

Sorry I just needed to rant and since no one's awake the blog got stuck with it.

I'd like to be... Under the Sea!

actually, no i would not. that's our new french unit and after 3 days with out french, math, or band, i have found that they all have moved ahead at super sonic speeds.

i have NO idea what the sea animals are called in french. don't even bother asking me what the hell a sequence sum is and if you think i have a clue as to the concert order, you are sadly mistaken.

i wish i had just been sick for one more day so i could push all this crap into next week.

Oh! and my brain has officially stopped.

lkajshdgt oiw4iu sd (<----- fingers tap dancing on key board.)

b