Scarecrow or Superman

Ok, so I was watching Batman Begins: epic movie if you can get over the fact that George Clooney isn't in it.
I had a mini-freak out when i saw Dr. Crane (A.K.A. the Scarecrow) because he looks ridiculously like Tom Welling who plays Smallville's Superman! I was like: That's great, he can be both a good guy and a bad guy effectively!! But as the credits rolled, i learned that it was NOT Tom Welling, it was Cillian Murphy who Abby supposedly likes, but I haven't heard a Cillian-Rant in FOREVER so maybe not so much anymore? Tell me that they don't look alike:

Love and Stuff,

Bzzzzz

This Poem Isn't About Much

Hey, so i think getting that last post off my chest is already helping it to be better :) yay for feeling better! i found this poem in an old diary and thought i should share it--esspecially since it's not in my usual ABCB pattern which gets repetitve. damn it. yes it is. never mind. okay, what ever... I think this is circa August 2010-ish. Probably about Chris... Possibly about people in general. I wish I remembered. Also, it's kinda dark and twisty, but i swear, i'm feeling much better, so it's just, there :)

A Call in the Dark

is anyone awake?
is anyone alive?

i've been living for yesterday.
what a silly little lie.

is anybody home?

is anybody there?

i don't know why,
but i used to think he cared.

can you tell me i'm not alone?

can you hear me cry these tears?

i used to be a person.
now i'm not even here.

The B-est Years?

i'm going through a huge crisis of faith and a huge crisis of self and i wonder why i was so happy back then. i wonder why i'm so unhappy now. i just wish that everything could be the way it was. parts of me wish that when i wake up tomorrow i'm 13 years old again and we're still at memorial. i guess i just like to live a little bit in the past. i'm told that i'm a victim of obsession...

that's from a phantom planet song. remember when they were just about all i listened to? remember when i dated christian deiderich? or when i wrote that sappy poem about Chris's "Ocean Blue Eyes"? how about when i thought i was going to quit band? do you remember the best lunch period i've ever had? the first day of freshman year when we established the sporknife and the sandwhich arsenal.

i remember all these things about i was and i maybe over dramatic here, but give me a break, 'cause the insomnia is rampant and i've gotten maybe 8 hours of sleep over the past 3 days.

i just have this fear that i've already been the best i'll be and life is kinda down hill from here... which is absolutely ridiculous because i'm 16 freakin' years old and probably have about 84% of my life left ahead... but it scares me. should i be scared of life?? geez!

how did i get like this?

all my love and more,
b

Summer!!!

Summmmmmeeeeeeeeeeeeeer!

I'm this excited :D