tell me the truth so i can muse over it and become torn up inside

do you think im making kyle my whole world?

Love//Hate//Muse

dear world,
i love you. so i recycle. i hate you. i'm kind of stuck here. and why? because of your stupid gravity.
love//hate,
b

hey, guys. i'm grounded here for like eternity. here's what i'll be doing until may:

• pretending to do homework
• rereading my favorite stories
• wishing i had reeds to practice
• maybe actually doing homework
• writing poetry... sad and depressing?? maybe.

which brings me to my next point. so i might have mentioned this guy i met in the play last year. abby knows. i have recently realized our classes are all really close. i think he's my muse. i wrote a really good poem about him, and if it gets edited soon, i'll post it.

love you lots,

becca

APUSH PROCRASTINATION!

Monday was just one of those days.
Tuesday was hard.
Wednesday I thought everything was starting to look up
Thursday it seemed to fall apart
Friday was fine.



I wish my weeks weren't so bipolar.
News on the DUCKY FRONT: I have transformed my life into a never ending orchestra rehearsal I am LOVING IT, assuming everything all works out with everything. And we all know what assuming does, especial since Kettman is involved.
I love you all and I miss you all. . .even though I see you everyday
~Love or whatever,
NEONDUCK

Mailmen and Hamsters

Today was a good day in English Class! Laura and I spent most of the time goofing off and discussing things that had little to do with English other than that being the language these things were spoken in.

Laura: You know what I've always wanted to do, you know, if it wasn't like animal cruelty? I've always wanted to buy like a whole bunch hamsters and just like stuff a mailbox full of them so when the mailman came it would be all HAMSTERS!!!
Me: Aw... poor hamsters....
Laura: Maybe I'll just get a bunch of ugly feeder rats.
Me: GOLDFISH! Do it with goldfish!
Both of Us: *random see-through mailbox tangent*
Laura: But what if once all of the hamsters come out, the mailman gets so scared, he like, steps on the gas and runs over a hamster?
Me: Hamsters are tough. My dad stepped on my hamster once.
Laura: Yeah, my cat ate my hamster once.
Me: Really? My HAMSTER ate my hamster once

Love! B

It's Hard Enough To Be Here Everyday...

I'm just going to skip the big apology about not every posting on the blog since that seems to be how all my posts start. I just want to point out that I do read the blog. A lot actually. I just never really have anything to post about I guess. Just want you all to know that I'm still around. I really made this post to share this awesome song with you guys. MW, I don't think you'll really like it. It just really kind of...inspired me? I don't know, I just really like it and it would be awesome if B could add it to the playlist if you guys like it! It's "Maybe We'll Make it After All" by Stages and Stereos. You know Jason Lancaster? The guy that was the main singer in Mayday Parade and now Go Radio? This is his little brother Daniel Lancaster and their sister. Just thought I would mention it since it's so hard to find good music these days. And MW, if you correct a single spelling mistake in my post I'm never going to post ever again!

And this is who we are

And this is what we've made

Don't close your eyes

Don't be afraid to fall

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And all that they'll say

Is failure's the only thing we'll find

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Well I'm wide awake

Unwilling to take advice from anybody else

I've already lost everything that's ever

Made any kind of sense

And I'm so proud of what I've made

On top of the world and not afraid to see the end

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My heart's filled with hope

Of getting the hell out of here

It's hard to be here everyday

This place is damned and God can't save it

I can't just get up and walk away

And let the narrow minds get by and lead the way

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My blood runs too think to let this go

The weight of the world is on my shoulders

Well, I'm at the point of no return

Oh while everyday is getting shorter

I'm sure that you hear my heart beat

From miles and miles away

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Well I'm wide awake

Unwilling to take advice from anybody else

I've already lost everything that's ever

Made and kind of sense

But I'm so proud of what I've made

On top of the world and not afraid to see the end

We Laugh, We Love, We Meddle.

Tired. Of it all. Stupid Drama. And most of it is actually something I got MYSELF into. Why? Why do I do these things?
Currently texting with Lucas about his little love triangle with Jessica and the Pretty Percussionist Girl (PPG... but not like the Power Puff Girls). I love Jessica, but she's a little much. My phone's really sparatic so I'm afraid Kyle thinks I just don't want to talk with him, which isn't the case.
Speaking of whom, I have a boyfriend. And I am the akward one. I guess because of band, I'm never going to really have any time to hang out with him except AT BAND. Which is usually really stressful and tiring anyway. OSU marching band on Saturday, so we'll hang probably all day.
Then maybe catching up with Haley that night. Life didn't used to have to be so planed. I used to live on whims and have free time and God, I used to smile. Now... I always feel like napping.
Maybe someday, I'll wake up. Or... not.
Hugs......
Baby Becca Bear.

creativity escapes me!

i cannot write.

i really cant.

i havent written a new song since... june? idk. although today some lyrics popped into my brain during math and i wrote them down, it turned out to be a worship song? i have no idea where that came from. oh well we'll see where it goes i guess.

i really really really cant wait until madrigal tryouts! although theyre in april so i guess i shouldnt hold my breath...

davidson gymnastics is a grand total of 2: me and a frosh with back problems. fanfreakingtastic.

my legs are so sore, theyre going to be sore for homecoming :(

WE GOT A 47' FLATSCREEN LCD TV!!!!!!!!! WERE FINALLY CAUGHT UP TO THE JONESES! hahahaaaa :) my daddy turned 47 yesterday which is why. im so happy!

anyway, im gonna try to blog more often. oh and my lil brother got a facebook, add him and post on his wall all the time, just so itll be funny ;)

love you all! even morbid who forgot i was a part of this blog :*(
love ya!


pooooooookieface:)

my oh my how life flies by

i dont write much of anything anymore.

my journal entries are all about 10 days apart.

i havent posted on here in God knows how long.

im sorry for that btw...

im just so tired or preoccupied and my parents have this stupid rule now that i have to be in bed by 11... im a night owl, i cant take it!!!!! now whenevr i stay up late on the weekends im so tired the next day its ridiculous!

i dont feel invincible anymore.

Kyle et moi avons au theatre pour le voir Charlottes Web. C'etait bien! Je il aime. mais, je ne il adore pas. not yet.

FRENCH IS KILLING ME! IT WAS SO MUCH BETTER WHEN I DIDNT HAVE TO WORK TO GET AN A+ NOW MME SHEPARD MAKES US DO HOMEWORK LIKE EVERYNIGHT!!!

i love you all and i really enjoyed seeing you all saturday night;) i wish we could have all gone together. Promise me that those who are involved in this dispute will just sit down and talk things out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate having you guys be mad at each other.

love you with all my heart <3

pookies